My sister died suddenly and unexpectedly, and in the midst of that I was attacked for saying how I sick I was of christians who refused to deal with their own crap. (By a man who seems to have a lifetime of unresolved crap.)
Several weeks later, I lost my job because I stood up against bullying in the workplace. (And I'd do the same all over again.)
And then, just as I was taking time out to heal, I was hit by legal action from two religious leaders who happened to be ex-friends. (Thankfully that has now been resolved as there was no evidence against me.)
But in the midst of that, my health broke down and I found myself unable to function in a reasonable manner.
And I ended up seeking professional help.
And it's the best thing I could have done.
And, in hindsight, I probably should have done it 3 years ago after being abused in the church.
But the point is that I've done it now. And it was a good and healthy choice. And my ex-friends have done me favour in that regard.
And I want to say, if you are struggling, or angry, or grieving, in this time when it feels like the whole world is celebrating, then you are not alone. And it's ok to admit it. And I want to encourage you to seek the help you might need.
There is no shame in admitting you are not a robot, or that there are no magic words, or that denying your emotional state is somehow godly.
And he was real and unashamed and honest.
So don't let anyone, or anything, hold you back from admitting that you are not ok - and reaching out for whatever help and support you need.
You, and I, are not alone!